Chapter 31: But Hers Seems To Be Called Extreme Hate
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All the efforts made before this moment have been in vain. Though she was reluctant to believe it, the doorbell continued to ring. Qu Xizhi reluctantly halted everything and draped the blanket over Gu Xizhi. "I'll go see who it is."
But it seemed as if Gu Xizhi hadn't heard her words at all. As she lowered her head, her cheeks were cast in shadow, and the obscured expression was unreadable.
Time waits for no one, although Qu Xizhi has a lot to say to her, this is not the time to talk after all, so she had to tidy up her clothes slightly, walked to the door, and looked outside through the peephole.
Standing outside the door, Ling Xian is dressed in a black skirt, her confident and mature appearance making Qu Xizhi didn't suspect for a moment that Ling Xian was here to chat casually at this time, as expected, as soon as Qu Xizhi opens the door, Ling Xian says earnestly, "I couldn't reach you on your phone or Miss Gu's phone. Director Zhao called just now and asked me to inquire if Miss Gu is here."
"Do you need her for anything?"
"President Sun came here on a business trip and wanted Miss Gu to come out and have a meal with him."
Qu Xizhi looked at the time, "It's very late now, he should have finished his meal, there is no need for her to go there."
"Director Zhao means that if President Sun doesn't see Miss Gu tonight, the drama 'Wangchuan River' might not go so smoothly."
Qu Xizhi rarely frowned, "What does that mean?"
"The company has a newcomer named Ivy who really wants to act in 'Wangchuan River'. Director Zhao said that if we don't give President Sun any face, this matter will be difficult to handle." Pausing for a moment, "In fact, given Sun Tingyou's personality, he's capable of doing anything."
Qu Xizhi remained silent for a moment, then turned to look at the quiet interior and whispered, "I understand. I'll talk to Sun Tingyou about this. Go back first."
Although it was strange that Qu Xizhi didn't answer whether Gu Xizhi was here or not from the beginning to the end, she was used to it so she just nodded and left without asking any questions.
Watching Ling Xian leave, Qu Xizhi closed the door and returned to the doorway of the bedroom. As she was about to reach the bedroom entrance, Qu Xizhi glanced at Gu Xizhi's damaged phone , which had been splashed with paint. She hesitated for a moment, then gently pushed open the partially closed bedroom door after a while. Just like before, the bedroom was filled with cool air, and the dim lighting persisted. Gu Xizhi was still sitting on the bed in silence, hugging her knees, and the deep red bed sheet appeared quite somber in the dim light.
There was no sound in the bedroom, and the too quiet environment made people feel a little uncomfortable. Qu Xizhi opened her mouth, and many words were about to come out, but upon seeing Gu Xizhi raise her pale face, those words transformed into a simple inquiry, "Are you... okay?"
Gu Xizhi lowered her head and did not speak, and buried her face in her palm, wishing she could bury herself in the pit. Everything that happened just now was as inexplicable as a dream. She felt like she was under a curse to do those things, she couldn't believe she did that, and she didn't know how she could do such things.
Obviously, Qu Xizhi is a woman, and she is also a woman, she and her can only be regarded as friends, but because of a momentary loss of control, it has developed to this point, not only has she no face to face the other, she has no face to face herself, let alone the word "friend" anymore.
Seeing her tightly gripping her bent knees, her knuckles turning white, Qu Xizhi took a few steps forward, attempting to guide her thoughts in a positive direction. "Actually, what happened just now is quite normal among adults, even between women. I know you haven't done this before, but if it weren't for the unexpected circumstances..."
Her words of persuasion came to a halt as she saw Gu Xizhi lower her head, tears streaming down her face. Qu Xizhi walked over to her, but before she could speak, Gu Xizhi looked up, her eyes reddened, and said, "I'm very sorry for what happened just now. Please forget about it immediately."
Qu Xizhi paused, then after a moment, she said, "But in reality, it's not as much as you think..."
"I regret it very much." Gu Xizhi's emotions were a little broken because she was so irritated by her own inexplicable and shameful behavior. She was agitated because she couldn't find a reason for her actions. She spoke without restraint, "I had no idea how to reject you. You, you are no different from Lin Mingling when you are pressing forward every step of the way!"
Qu Xizhi didn't speak, and the expression on her face was obviously hurt. After a brief silence, Qu Xizhi took the initiative to apologize, "I'm sorry, I didn't control my behavior, but you have to believe that I am different from her, I did this to you only because..." She paused, seeing her disgusted, and the "I like you" stuck in her throat was swallowed back. Instead, she said with some helplessness, "In any case, I'm not like her."
Gu Xizhi didn't respond but lowered her head, and after a while, she said seriously with red eyes, "I won't act in "Wangchuan River" anymore."
Qu Xizhi was a little surprised, her beautiful eyes looked a little deep because she was puzzled, "You have already acted half of this drama, how can you say you won't act anymore?
"I said I won't act so I won't." Gu Xizhi wiped her tears willfully, "I heard you talking to Ling Xian just now, and I know what Sun Tingyou meant. That old pervert doesn't want any female artists go at all, if his eyes are on me now, then it's better to just give up this drama.
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Qu Xizhi frowned, and said disapprovingly, "You've been preparing for this drama for so long, let alone, we're halfway through filming, even if it's just one scene, you absolutely cannot be replaced. Moreover, there are very few people in the film industry who are more suitable than you to play the leading role in this play And you happen to really need this TV drama."
Gu Xizhi shook her head as if she couldn't listen at all, "I don't care about that, I don't want to deal with this. I just don't want to make this drama right now."
She was so sure and firm, Qu Xizhi looked at her and was silent for a long time before saying, "Is it because of me?"
Gu Xizhi buried her head in her knees and did not speak.
Qu Xizhi turned her head to look at the night scene outside the window, and after recovering for a few seconds, she turned her head and said to her, "If you just said what you said just because you wanted to avoid me, then I will go, and you don't need to go."
Gu Xizhi still buried her head in her knees, but her trembling body clearly proved that she was crying.
Qu Xizhi took out a dozen tissues from a side cabinet, but just put them beside her and didn't hand them to her, "There was actually a very good script for a movie at the end of the year, and I was afraid that the schedule would not be able to make it so I turned it down, but now that I think about it, It’s more cost-effective to make a movie. I have a handle on Sun Tingyou, so I'll be the one to persuade him that this TV series can’t lose you now. You must finish filming this drama well, okay?"
Gu Xizhi has long been weeping. The remorse and self-blame for those things just now have caused her pain to the point of being unbearable. She should have hated and rejected her, who gave her pain. However, hearing her words not only didn't bring her any relief, but it also triggered an even stronger wave of tears that continued to stream down her face.
She couldn't figure it out, couldn't understand why she treated her so badly, but she was still so gentle and even helped her. This kind of her was repulsive and deeply detested. Seeing her cry like this, Qu Xizhi's expression appeared equally gloomy. Upon reflecting on what had just happened, Qu Xizhi suddenly realized that perhaps her own haste had caused someone who had no understanding of homosexuality to abruptly confront reality on such a large scale. If she likes her a little bit, this approach might have been somewhat acceptable, but given the current situation, the outlook seemed far from optimistic.
The increasingly clear thinking made Qu Xizhi couldn't avoid taking responsibility for her actions any longer, but a glimmer of hope made her unable to resist saying, "I didn't tell the truth when you asked me yesterday, I think you should understand now, the truth is, I came to film this drama just because of you, but not just to be friends." She paused, looking a little cautious and delicate, "Do you... really feel that you can't accept it at all…"
"I hate you very much." Before the last word could be finished, Gu Xizhi raised her head and interrupted her abruptly. She wiped her tears with her hands, and after seeing Qu Xizhi's obviously hurt expression, she wanted to control her hurtful words, but many things happened just like before, and they couldn't be stopped for no reason at all.
"From the first time I heard your name, I hated you very much. You are better than me in everything. As long as you are there, everyone's eyes will be on you instead of me. You are the proud girl of heaven who certainly doesn't know how hard it is for me to develop into what I am in the entertainment industry. Maybe you disdain everything I have now, but I am a little star whose fate is controlled by others every minute. Look, just one word from Sun Tingyou and I could go years without a job. The gap between us is so big and so obvious, I will feel sad for myself when I think of you, how can I not hate you?"
She said so much in a row, Qu Xizhi's face turned pale several times, but she tried her best to control her emotions, and finally just said quietly, "Okay, if you don't like me so much, I will try to avoid your sight from tomorrow on, but Work is work, don't delay your career because of personal feelings, and don't care too much about other people's evaluations, they don't understand you at all, you will definitely be better than me because you are so good."
Gu Xizhi wiped her tears to control her emotions, pretended not to hear her words, got off the bed, put on her shoes, and walked out of the bedroom.
Qu Xizhi watched her walk out the door, endured it for a long time, and said, "I will leave the film crew tomorrow, you have to film well."
Gu Xizhi just stopped for a while, then left without looking back. Qu Xizhi looked at her back, eyes drooping tiredly. Before she stepped into this bedroom again, she imagined many possibilities for Gu Xizhi's reaction, such as scolding her, keeping silent, or even slapping her like before. But she never thought she would cry, and cry so sadly.
There are many kinds of women's tears; tears of joy, excessive sadness, and even gratitude.
But hers seems to be called extreme hate.
…she still hates her so much.
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