Chapter 89
Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
From childhood to adulthood, Qin Wanshu has always been a person with an extremely firm character. She cannot be easily tempted nor would she do anything out of line. However, the more one understands Qin Wanshu's character, the tighter Qin Zheng's brows furrow.
"Do you not care about disappointing everyone?" Qin Zheng asked.
"In one's lifetime, one must live for others as well as for oneself. This time, consider it as Wanshu being selfish and willful," Qin Wanshu said with a smile. She doesn't have many things or people she's determined about, but Zuo Qinghuan is one she doesn't want to miss out on.
"What is so good about that woman that makes you so fascinated, that makes you abandon ethics to like a woman?" Qin Zheng was puzzled, just like Lin Jingxian, he found it equally difficult to understand this kind of emotion.
"What does it matter whether she's good or not? The most important thing is that I am happy when I'm with her. When I'm with her, I feel like an ordinary person," Qin Wanshu never liked being held in high regard by others; high positions bring loneliness.
"Since you were young, I have never taught you to be an ordinary person. You are my granddaughter, the proudest daughter of the Qin family, with noble character. You shouldn't let an unworthy person taint your life," If that person were worthy of his granddaughter, Qin Zheng could have accepted it, but that person was simply not worthy of her. In Qin Zheng's eyes, a woman like Zuo Qinghuan was a huge stain on Qin Wanshu.
"I also know that all your arrangements are for my own good, but Grandpa, the road ahead is still long. I don't want to follow the path you've paved for me every step of the way. Perhaps my own chosen path may have detours, but at least it's my own choice, my own experience. The person who can accompany me for a lifetime should perhaps be chosen by me. Let time verify whether I've made the right choice. Unattainable things always lead to lingering regrets. Doesn't Grandpa also have someone he can't have but has been longing for?" Qin Wanshu appealed to emotions, reasoning that even if she made logical arguments, she couldn't persuade Qin Zheng, so she appealed to emotions. Although her Grandpa always claimed to love her Grandma the most, that was just what elders say to their juniors, Qin Wanshu knew that her Grandpa had always been longing for someone else.
Qin Zheng fell silent for a moment.
"The one you long for doesn't necessarily mean they are the most suitable for you," Qin Zheng furrowed his brows even tighter.
"Whether they are suitable or not, only oneself will know. Just like Han Shibin, he seemed suitable on the surface, but only I know he's not suitable," Qin Wanshu smiled in response.
"You're both women, how can it be suitable, and it won't last long either," Qin Zheng still felt that relationships between women were too frivolous, but he couldn't find a stronger reason to persuade Qin Wanshu.
"If it can last long, I believe Grandpa would also bless us. If it can't last long, isn't that also something Grandpa would hope for?" Qin Wanshu retorted.
Qin Zheng was momentarily at a loss for words, feeling somewhat annoyed.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Qin Zheng asked again, hoping to get a different answer. He believed that Wanshu was using sophistry, clearly wrong but arguing convincingly.
Mm," Qin Wanshu nodded.
"What if you have to choose between the Qin family and her?"
"I don't see any contradiction between the two." But if her family couldn't accept the person she chose, she would still choose Zuo Qinghuan. Because she knew that with her family's selfless love for her, they would eventually compromise. Although this thought was somewhat selfish and even disrespectful, her Grandpa had many children, but Zuo Qinghuan only had herself, and she couldn't let her down.
"What if you must choose?" Qin Zheng persisted with this question.
"The truth is, this question is like asking which arm is more important, the left or the right. But why must one side be severed? Any side that's cut off will hurt me, Grandpa wouldn't be so cruel to me," Qin Wanshu wouldn't directly state her answer, as she still had to consider Grandfather's feelings.
"Is she really that important?" Could one Zuo Qinghuan weigh as much as an entire family?
Qin Wanshu nodded.
"She's only interested in Qin Wanshu, everything that the Qin family has given you. If the Qin family takes away everything from you, do you think she would still like you?" Qin Zheng countered.
"She's willing to die for me, which means I'm more important than anything else," Qin Wanshu firmly believed in this.
"Alright, I'll take back everything from you, and you won't be able to use the abilities bestowed upon you by the Qin family anymore. When you choose her, you'll lose the right to inherit the Qin family's property, and you won't be eligible to use the abilities taught by the Qin family. I won't accept your relationship under any circumstances," Qin Wanshu's upbringing in the Qin family had made her quite open-minded about money, but this openness was based on her always being in a wealthy state. However, once she lost this wealthy environment, Qin Zheng believed Qin Wanshu wouldn't be able to adapt. Qin Zheng wanted to use this to pressure Qin Wanshu into submission.
"Grandpa, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I won't give up on her no matter what," Qin Wanshu remained steadfast in her stance.
"Go out, stay at home for a few days, and think things over," Qin Zheng rubbed his temples tiredly, feeling a headache coming on. He suddenly felt that there might not be a breakthrough with Wanshu.
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"You seem pretty calm. Actually, I've always thought you were a strong person. If it were me, I'd probably be freaking out," Li Xin felt she was unusually weak and helpless when it came to love.
"If someone protects you, who would want to be strong alone?" Zuo Qinghuan asked with a smile, sometimes strength is forced by circumstances.
Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
"I hope this time, Qin Wanshu can protect you," rather than letting Zuo Qinghuan pretend to be strong alone, which also made her feel uncomfortable.
"She always keeps her word," Zuo Qinghuan was confident about Qin Wanshu. Qin Wanshu was a very strong woman emotionally, different from all other women, but even with her strength, there were always unresolved issues between her and her family.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Li Xin asked again with concern. The hospital had called several times urging her to return. She was still worried about Zuo Qinghuan. After all, when she was abandoned by Yan Ruowen, it was Zuo Qinghuan who was there to take care of her and comfort her. Now, leaving Zuo Qinghuan behind made her feel guilty. However, she had a surgery scheduled for the afternoon, which was a matter of life and death, and Li Xin was in a dilemma.
"I'm fine, you go back to the hospital," Zuo Qinghuan understood Li Xin's predicament, and her concern was enough.
"Are you sure?" Li Xin asked uncertainly again.
"I'm sure. It's not like I've just been through a breakup. What are you fussing about?" Zuo Qinghuan raised an eyebrow and asked.
"Okay, I'm going back now. Call me if you need anything." Li Xin saw that Zuo Qinghuan seemed fine and left with relief.
Zuo Qinghuan waited until Li Xin left, then squatted down, curling up her body into a ball. In truth, she was someone with extreme insecurity. When she was young, Zuo Yan always left her for trivial reasons, countless times, which made Zuo Qinghuan doubt her own worth. Zuo Qinghuan was afraid that the Qin family would make Qin Wanshu choose between her and the family. She wasn't sure if her presence could compete with the entire Qin family. Although she knew that Qin Wanshu was different from Zuo Yan, that feeling of insecurity persisted.
Zuo Qinghuan waited for Qin Wanshu to come back, every minute was so unbearable, almost making her want to cry.
Author's Note:
This chapter took me a long time to write...
Going to bed now...
