Chapter 90
Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
Zuo Qinghuan's greatest fear is waiting, like an agonizing wait.
She didn't know how long she had been crouching, nor when the sky turned dark. She also didn't know, nor did she want to turn on the light. The room was pitch black, silent as if no one had ever been there.
The phone rang, and Zuo Qinghuan hastily picked it up, her heart filled with urgency.
"What are you doing?" came Qin Wanshu's soft and beautiful voice from the phone, always calming Zuo Qinghuan's heart.
“I'm missing you." Zuo Qinghuan wanted to stand up but found herself not knowing how long she had been crouching, her feet numbness bringing intense tingling pain, but she forcibly endured it. Compared to the torment of the soul, the physical pain could provide her with a twisted feeling of spiritual comfort, somewhat similar to self-abuse.
"I miss you too." Qin Wanshu smiled, suddenly feeling lovesick. It turned out that the weight of that person was much heavier than she had expected.
"Qin Wanshu, do you love me?" Zuo Qinghuan asked, not knowing why her heart would ache when asking.
“I do." Qin Wanshu replied after a moment of silence, answering cautiously.
Zuo Qinghuan smiled faintly but remained silent for a long time. Regardless of the outcome Qin Wanshu chooses, she will not blame Qin Wanshu for her choice. Even if she is left behind, she feels it is worth it. Zuo Qinghuan suddenly understands why Zuo Yan and Li Xin are so weak and helpless in love.
"Grandpa asked me to stay with him at home for two days. I'll be back in two days," Qin Wanshu explained, not wanting to leave Zuo Qinghuan.
"Qin Wanshu, I don't want to be a burden to you. Whatever choice you make, I'll support you," Zuo Qinghuan said slowly, her voice trying to sound as light as possible.
"Silly, believe in the person you love," Qin Wanshu felt a bit sorry for Zuo Qinghuan. She knew Zuo Qinghuan might not distrust her, but rather, she didn't believe she held such weight.
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"I'll wait for you to come back," Zuo Qinghuan said, tears slipping down her cheeks. Finally, there was someone who would never abandon her no matter what.
"I will. Would you like me to play the piano for you?" Qin Wanshu asked. She didn't want to hang up yet, but speaking sweet words wasn't her style. Her feelings were always restrained and firm.
"Okay," Zuo Qinghuan nodded with tears in her eyes, smiling faintly.
Qin Wanshu placed her phone down and gently stroked the black and white keys. The melodious sound of the piano echoed through the phone, reaching Zuo Qinghuan who wasn't by her side. Zuo Qinghuan felt a slight warmth, knowing that Qin Wanshu was possibly the most perfect and romantic lover in the world.
Qin Wanshu played earnestly, feeling as if Zuo Qinghuan was leaning against the wall, gazing at her playing the piano with burning eyes. At that moment, Zuo Qinghuan's eyes were only filled with Qin Wanshu, and her heart felt full. When in love, never let yourself or your partner feel lonely.
Zuo Qinghuan could imagine Qin Wanshu's elegant expression, her slender and beautiful fingers dancing on the piano keys. That woman who endlessly fascinated her, every smile and detail of hers was deeply engraved in Zuo Qinghuan's heart.
Unknowingly, Lin Jingxian came in. She saw her daughter playing the piano with a gentle expression tinged with faint happiness, which was beautiful but something she had never seen before. The happiest thing in Lin Jingxian's life was marrying Qin Wanshu's father, that honest and kind man. The most fulfilling thing was giving birth to three children for him, and the proudest thing was having Qin Wanshu as a daughter. The most hopeful thing was that all three children could be happy.
Qin Wanshu was different from other children from the moment she was born. Apart from the clear cry when she was born, she rarely cried afterward, not causing any trouble. She was a very reassuring child, not like other children who would trouble their mothers. Everyone said she was a child who would cherish her mother. Lin Jingxian always felt inexplicably proud of Qin Wanshu, who was exceptionally beautiful as a baby. In fact, as this child grew up, this sense of pride not only did not diminish but increased. She was so outstanding that even her mother found it unbelievable. However, there was also some regret. Under the strict teaching of her father-in-law, the originally obedient child became even more restrained in expressing her emotions. This restraint made Lin Jingxian feel a bit heartbroken and regretful. This obedient child was not too clingy, which made her mother feel a bit lost. Such a rebellious and determined declaration to the family, that she wanted to be with a woman, was unprecedented. Lin Jingxian couldn't bear to refuse her daughter's first request, but why did that person have to be a woman? This made her very worried.
Qin Wanshu stopped and glanced at her wristwatch, only then realizing she had been playing for a long time.
"I played for too long, making you suffer," Qin Wanshu picked up her phone and gently asked as she placed it to her ear. Overdoing it, Zuo Qinghuan's ears suffered.
"It's okay. Listening to your voice makes me feel calm. I won't have trouble sleeping alone tonight," Zuo Qinghuan smiled and said. She had never put her phone down, and it was burning hot, but Zuo Qinghuan still couldn't bear to let go of it.
"It's very late, go to sleep. Promise me, take good care of yourself these two days. I want to see the beautiful Zuo Qinghuan in two days," Qin Wanshu said with a smile.
"Okay," Zuo Qinghuan nodded. All she could do was take good care of herself.
After finishing the call, Qin Wanshu finally noticed her mother.
"Mom, how long have you been here?" Qin Wanshu asked Lin Jingxian. Her mother, who usually went to bed early, hadn't slept yet, indicating that she was also worried about her own affairs.
"Not long. When Wanshu was very young, Mom wondered what kind of boy could accompany our Wanshu. Later, when you brought Shibin home, I thought although that child was outstanding, I always felt like something was missing. Now I understand. Shibin wouldn't make your expression so gentle. What kind of girl is the one you've fallen for?" Lin Jingxian asked.
"She is extraordinarily beautiful and elegant. Unfortunately, her hair is short now. Otherwise, Mom would surely think she resembles a fairy descended from heaven. She's a bit wilful, a bit sensitive, but very considerate. Being with her requires little restraint, and I feel very comfortable and relaxed. If she were to meet you, she would likely be shy most of the time. Who knows, she might like you very much. She's a child lacking maternal love and had a tough time in her childhood, but she's strong and optimistic, always striving to change. If she were born in an environment like ours, she would definitely be no less outstanding than Wanshu." Qin Wanshu spoke of Zuo Qinghuan, her tone surprisingly gentle.
"Is that so? Let Mom meet her sometime," Lin Jingxian said. Perhaps she didn't understand the feelings between Wanshu and that girl, but solely based on Wanshu's praises and the emotions she expressed for that child, Lin Jingxian felt that they should meet. Qin Wanshu understood her mother well. Lin Jingxian was very kind and soft-hearted. She would definitely not want to make things difficult for her and Zuo Qinghuan. After all, Zuo Qinghuan seemed like a child who would be cherished. A mother would hope to have a daughter like Zuo Qinghuan, because Zuo Qinghuan seemed to be more affectionate with her mother, unlike her, whose emotions were never too strong, whether it was love or family affection.
"There will be a chance," Qin Wanshu said with a smile. She guessed that based on what Zuo Qinghuan had said, she would definitely wait until her hair grew a bit longer before meeting her mother. That girl was very dissatisfied with her current appearance.
Author's Note:
These past few days, I relived Faith's, “Yishi Chaoxi” and “Shangguan Wan'er”. I rarely read novels that I have read for a second time. I have read these two books many times, but I still feel that I am still unsatisfied. Faith's writing is excellent, and the women in her novels are all extremely beautiful…
I will write about Li Yan, but I still have to wait.
There have been a lot less comments recently. Is my writing poor?
