Chapter 101
Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
Zuo Qinghuan took a deep breath, suppressing the chaotic emotions in her heart before taking out her keys to open the door.
"Come here." Qin Wanshu waved to Zuo Qinghuan. She felt that Zuo Qinghuan had been out for too long today, and she was starting to miss her.
Zuo Qinghuan obediently walked over to Qin Wanshu. Qin Wanshu reached out and pulled Zuo Qinghuan's waist, allowing her to sit on her lap. This kind of proactive Qin Wanshu was rare, but Zuo Qinghuan didn't notice today because too many things were weighing on her mind. She instinctively hugged Qin Wanshu, greedily absorbing the fragrance emanating from her.
"Your eyes look a bit red, have you been crying?" Qin Wanshu noticed the subtle swelling in Zuo Qinghuan's eyes.
Zuo Qinghuan shook her head. She deliberately stayed outside a bit longer before coming back, afraid that Qin Wanshu would see that she had cried.
"Did my grandfather trouble you?" Qin Wanshu asked sensitively.
"No, I'm just a bit tired today," Zuo Qinghuan didn't want Qin Wanshu to know that her grandfather had approached her.
"Go take a shower and rest early tonight," Qin Wanshu hugged Zuo Qinghuan, saying with concern.
"Can I claim you as mine with my love?" Zuo Qinghuan suddenly looked up at Qin Wanshu and asked with a smile.
"You can," Qin Wanshu nodded indulgently at Zuo Qinghuan. She didn't mind being owned by Zuo Qinghuan. In fact, wasn't Zuo Qinghuan also hers?
Zuo Qinghuan smiled happily. Qin Wanshu was truly the most wonderful woman. Having a woman like Qin Wanshu as her own, Zuo Qinghuan might even be woken up from her dreams with a smile.
"Qin Wanshu, if I wanted to go out and study for three years, would you wait for me?" Zuo Qinghuan asked tentatively.
Qin Wanshu furrowed her brows slightly. Why did Zuo Qinghuan suddenly want to study? Something seemed off with her today.
"What do you want to study? Maybe I can teach you," Qin Wanshu asked. She couldn't bear to let Zuo Qinghuan leave for three years. Three years was a long time.
"But, I want to be better than you." Zuo Qinghuan said coquettishly. She must grow up outside Qin Wanshu's wings, otherwise she will always be hidden under Qin Wanshu's wings.
"But are you willing to leave me for three years?" Qin Wanshu probably understood in her heart. Zuo Qinghuan was likely feeling inferior. While it's good for her woman to want to study and improve herself, three years is indeed too long, and Qin Wanshu couldn't bear it.
"I don't want to, but I really want to become better," Zuo Qinghuan's reluctance in her heart was probably greater than Qin Wanshu's, but no matter how reluctant, one must still be willing to let go.
Qin Wanshu felt a slight tightness in her heart at her words.
"Your request is quite sudden. Did my grandfather pressure you?" Qin Wanshu asked. This wasn't Zuo Qinghuan's usual style. Didn't she once say that she was her entire world? How did things change so quickly? Obviously, something must have happened.
"He didn't pressure me. I just realized many things. You said I could make my own sky broader." Zuo Qinghuan buried her face in Qin Wanshu's neck, gently rubbing her face against it.
"Zuo Qinghuan, I really don't need you to grow. I'm even afraid you'll fly too high. In three years, there are too many variables. I don't know if I have the patience to wait. Promise me, don't easily leave me." Qin Wanshu held Zuo Qinghuan tightly, feeling afraid of losing her for the first time. She was no longer young, and she had already decided what kind of person she wanted. She didn't want Zuo Qinghuan to leave just because of her own insecurities. There aren't many three years to waste in life.
Zuo Qinghuan nodded, holding Qin Wanshu tightly. How wonderful it would be if she could just be with Qin Wanshu, without caring about anything else.
"Qin Wanshu, I really love you, so much." She loved her to the point of fear. There were nights when she would wake up in the middle of the night, reaching out to touch the woman beside her, feeling like she wasn't real, afraid it was all just a dream, and she would wake up with nothing.
"If you love me, then don't leave me. If you want to grow, I can be there for you," Qin Wanshu selfishly wanted to keep Zuo Qinghuan by her side. If Zuo Qinghuan wanted to improve, she could slowly teach her, but she couldn't bear for her to leave.
Zuo Qinghuan smiled and nodded.
Seeing Zuo Qinghuan nod, Qin Wanshu felt a slight relief. She believed that Zuo Qinghuan would overcome her psychological insecurities for her, and she also believed that Zuo Qinghuan wouldn't easily leave her.
That night, after a moment of tenderness, Qin Wanshu and Zuo Qinghuan lay facing each other. Zuo Qinghuan's fingers traced lightly on Qin Wanshu's face as if wanting to engrave every detail of her face into her heart.
"Why do you always like to touch my face?" Qin Wanshu, still with a gentle and charming voice, softly asked Zuo Qinghuan.
"I'm just thinking, how can there be such a beautiful woman in the world? No matter how many times I look, it's never enough," Zuo Qinghuan said with a smile.
"Sweet words." It's a woman's nature to love sweet words, even Qin Wanshu, listening to Zuo Qinghuan's sweet words, felt pleased.
"Qin Wanshu," Zuo Qinghuan softly called her name.
"Mm?"
"Give me a good look too, I'm also a beauty." Remember my face clearly too, don't ever forget me.
Qin Wanshu couldn't help but smile at her words, placing her fingers lightly on Zuo Qinghuan's brow. Yes, she was indeed a beauty.
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Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
"Aunt Xiao, I've decided to go to Japan." Zuo Qinghuan called Xiao Qinan from the coffee shop.
"I've pretty much arranged everything for you. You can leave anytime." Xiao Qinan had anticipated that Zuo Qinghuan would choose this path. Zuo Qinghuan was a smart girl, and she understood that temporary loss was for the sake of permanent gain in the future.
"Thank you, Aunt Xiao," Zuo Qinghuan said sincerely, feeling grateful from the bottom of her heart.
"You're a child I've watched grow up. I hope you can spread your wings. Three years is too short for what you want to learn, so the rest of your journey will depend on your fate." Three years is not long for learning, but waiting will be even harder for the person left behind.
After hanging up the phone, Zuo Qinghuan left the coffee shop early and went to the market to buy many dishes that Qin Wanshu loved.
"With so many dishes, can we finish them all?" Qin Wanshu looked at the table full of food, clearly knowing that the two of them couldn't eat it all.
"If we can't finish them, we can put them in the refrigerator," Zuo Qinghuan said, looking at the table full of dishes that couldn't fit anymore, then satisfied, she took off her apron.
"Red wine?" Qin Wanshu pointed to a bottle of red wine on the table. Zuo Qinghuan had a plan, otherwise, why would she even bring out the wine? Qin Wanshu knew well how sensitive she was to alcohol; just one glass and she'd be intoxicated.
"Wine has its versatile uses," Zuo Qinghuan said mysteriously with a smile.
"I have a feeling you're up to no good tonight," Qin Wanshu still remembered the scene of Zuo Qinghuan pouring her wine for the first time.
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Zuo Qinghuan looked at the sleeping Qin Wanshu, not sure if she was tired from her excessive demands or from drinking some wine. In any case, Qin Wanshu was sleeping deeply, oblivious to her surroundings.
Looking at the sleeping Qin Wanshu, Zuo Qinghuan felt like her heart was being torn apart, the pain suffocating her. She really couldn't bear to leave this woman. Just the thought of not being able to see her for three years made her heart ache terribly.
"I will definitely come back. You have to wait for me," Zuo Qinghuan lowered her head and kissed Qin Wanshu's forehead. "Qin Wanshu, you must wait for me to come back."
Zuo Qinghuan dared not look at Qin Wanshu again, afraid that if she looked at her for a moment longer, she wouldn't be able to leave.
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"Feeling sad?" Xiao Qinan asked Zuo Qinghuan, who had been silent the whole time.
Zuo Qinghuan didn't answer, just nodded. Her mind was filled with thoughts of Qin Wanshu, and several times she felt the impulse to return to Qin Wanshu's side.
Xiao Qinan could understand Zuo Qinghuan's emotions at this moment. She had experienced it herself, that kind of pain and reluctance as if her heart was being torn apart, it was a choice without choice.
"If you really can't bear it, just go back. Without a firm heart, it's impossible to do it," Xiao Qinan said with some reluctance.
"No, I want to go to Japan." At this point, Zuo Qinghuan no longer allowed herself to be weak.
"I can only take you here. The rest of the journey is up to you," Xiao Qinan escorted Zuo Qinghuan to the security checkpoint.
"Aunt Xiao..." Zuo Qinghuan didn't know how to express her gratitude to Xiao Qinan anymore.
"You don't need to say anything. If you want to thank me, let me see a completely new Zuo Qinghuan in three years," Xiao Qinan said with a smile.
Zuo Qinghuan nodded. Three years from now, she would definitely come back.
Qin Wanshu had a dream. In the dream, Zuo Qinghuan said she was leaving. Startled awake, Qin Wanshu immediately reached out to the side, but it was empty, leaving her feeling unsettled.
"Zuo Qinghuan..." Qin Wanshu called out, but there was no response. This sudden realization filled Qin Wanshu with panic. She picked up her phone from the bedside table, intending to call Zuo Qinghuan to ask where she was, only to find a note underneath.
‘Wait for me for three years. I will come back.’ Qin Wanshu couldn't believe the contents of the note. She had always thought that Zuo Qinghuan couldn't leave her, just as she couldn't leave Zuo Qinghuan. But she really had left. Qin Wanshu felt as if her heart had been struck by a heavy object, a dull ache spreading through her chest. She never knew that the heart could ache like this.
What gave Zuo Qinghuan the right to believe that she definitely needed her to grow? Even if she wanted to grow, Qin Wanshu could accompany her. Why did she arrogantly decide everything, and why did she think Qin Wanshu would definitely wait for her for three years? Qin Wanshu crumpled the note into a ball. Zuo Qinghuan, I can understand your choice, but I don't forgive your choice!
The plane has taken off and has left the country. At this time, she must have woken up. Is she looking for me? Will she understand my choice? Zuo Qinghuan thought of Qin Wanshu and tears rolled down her cheeks.
Author's Note:
Zuo Qin has come to an end for the time being, and they will have to wait three years. Now, I will focus on writing about Li Yan.
