Chapter 114
Source: https://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=1363950 This translation was originally posted on https://love4baihe.blogspot.com
Li Xin glared at Yan Ruowen. How could Yan Ruowen appear in her own home? Didn't this heartless woman say they weren't suitable? Li Xin had been trying hard to forget her, so why was she here? "You said we aren't suitable. I've been trying really hard to cooperate with you, trying really hard not to love you anymore. What else are you not satisfied with?" Li Xin asked angrily.
"I take back what I said before and apologize for my previous words," Yan Ruowen felt it was necessary to apologize for her previous hurtful words. Admitting fault was considered one of Yan Ruowen's virtues.
"Yan Ruowen, do you think a simple apology is enough? And we have no relationship anymore, so what does apologizing matter?" Li Xin asked coldly. She didn't understand Yan Ruowen's purpose in appearing. If it was just to apologize, she didn't need it.
"Li Xin, I think I like you. Honestly, I'm not good at handling emotional matters, so I don't know what I should do now to make you satisfied," Yan Ruowen said very sincerely and earnestly, looking at Li Xin, who seemed like a hedgehog at the moment.
Li Xin looked at Yan Ruowen in disbelief. How could Yan Ruowen claim to like her? Wasn't she the one who wanted to cut ties with her?
"What did you say?" Li Xin asked uncertainly once again.
"I like you," Yan Ruowen repeated, noticing Li Xin's slightly softened expression and believing that those were the words Li Xin wanted to hear.
Li Xin couldn't believe it. After five years of not showing any affection, how could Yan Ruowen suddenly come to her house and claim to like her? It didn't seem real.
"I miss you a lot. When you're not around, I close my eyes and think of you. The thought of you possibly never appearing in front of me makes me feel uneasy. I guess that's love, so I want to bring you back," Yan Ruowen confessed her true feelings to Li Xin.
"Maybe you're just used to being loved by someone, and suddenly not having that makes you uncomfortable," Li Xin retorted. Despite her words, her heart couldn't help but leap with joy. Even though she had resolved to forget about this woman, her determination crumbled with just one sentence from her.
Yan Ruowen was taken aback. She realized she couldn't refute Li Xin's words. As an orphan, she feared loneliness and longed for someone to love her. Was Li Xin's love for her just a habit? Yan Ruowen wasn't sure anymore.
Li Xin's improved mood didn't last for even a minute. Seeing Yan Ruowen's indifferent expression, she became furious. This detestable woman was indeed only accustomed to being loved by her, only enjoying her love, and not genuinely liking her.
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"Yan Ruowen, get out! I don't want to see you again. I hate you the most!" Li Xin was very angry. She forcefully pushed Yan Ruowen out of the door. She loathed Yan Ruowen. Since she didn't love her and came to shake her determination, she was determined to forget about her. She didn't want Yan Ruowen to be with her out of habit. Even if it wasn't love but habit, at least make some effort to deceive herself. She would willingly be deceived by her, but Yan Ruowen wasn't even willing to deceive her, anyway, Yan Ruowen made her extremely angry.
After being rudely pushed out by Li Xin, Yan Ruowen couldn't distinguish between love and habit, and she wasn't sure what to do.
After being pushed out, Yan Ruowen's mood didn't improve. Instead, it worsened. She heard the loud noises coming from inside the room, and she was worried about Li Xin. Fortunately, Li Yao's spare key was still in the door.
Yan Ruowen opened the door again, almost being hit by the photo album thrown by Li Xin. She frowned as she looked at the messy room. It wasn't a good habit to throw things around randomly. She would have to help Li Xin change this bad habit in the future.
"Why haven't you left yet?" Li Xin shouted at Yan Ruowen. She had initially wanted to throw the thick books in her hand at Yan Ruowen, but she was afraid of injuring her with hard objects, so she withdrew them. The thought of not being able to throw them made Li Xin even angrier.
Li Xin was a very emotional woman, and Yan Ruowen was actually afraid of Li Xin throwing things at her. So she quickly walked over to Li Xin and hugged her tightly, preventing Li Xin from struggling.
“Stop making trouble," Yan Ruowen ordered with a slightly stern tone, exerting authority without anger, which actually made Li Xin quieter and more obedient.
"What's the difference between love and habit? I can't tell, but does it matter? Even if it's just a habit, can't I turn it into a lifelong habit?" Yan Ruowen asked. Why must they insist on love and all those unrealistic things? They were both mature adults, not little girls. Shouldn't supporting each other and enduring together be the most important?
Li Xin thought for a moment and found some truth in Yan Ruowen's words. Yan Ruowen herself was emotionally dull, so asking her for love seemed as futile as talking to a brick wall. Even if Yan Ruowen only treated her as a habit, turning it into a lifelong habit didn't seem like a bad choice. As long as she couldn't be without her for the rest of her life.
But Li Xin didn't want to compromise so quickly, fearing she would appear weak and easily swayed. So she remained silent with a stern expression.
Yan Ruowen noticed that although Li Xin's face was still stern, her body had softened. She wasn't dumb; she knew Li Xin probably wanted her to comfort her, but comforting women wasn't something Yan Ruowen excelled at. As she held Li Xin, she realized Li Xin had lost quite a bit of weight.
"You seem to have lost a lot of weight," Yan Ruowen said with a hint of concern. She still preferred the Li Xin from before, whose devilish figure was almost intimidating.
“Aaah!" Li Xin shrieked, suddenly realizing her current appearance issue. She knew she must look a mess right now, with poor complexion. How could she let Ruowen see her looking so ugly? It was a big taboo; she absolutely wouldn't allow herself to look so ugly in front of her lover.
"What's wrong?" Yan Ruowen was startled by Li Xin's shriek.
"You need to leave now. I look terrible right now, I don't want to live anymore..." Li Xin wailed, feeling miserable to the point of tears. She desperately tried to break free from Yan Ruowen's embrace, wanting to push her out of the room again, not wanting her to see her current state for even a moment longer.
But Yan Ruowen held onto Li Xin tightly, refusing to let her go. She looked at the familiar Li Xin and inexplicably felt warm inside. This was the Li Xin she knew, the woman who cared so much about her appearance.
"You're not ugly. I've never felt you're so beautiful as I do now," Yan Ruowen said earnestly as she looked at Li Xin.
"Yan Ruowen, I didn't know you could talk nonsense like this." Li Xin looked at Yan Ruowen in astonishment. After all, her current appearance wasn't much better than a female ghost's. Wait, was Yan Ruowen trying to sweet-talk her? Li Xin was surprised that Yan Ruowen could even do that! Though Yan Ruowen's sweet words were easily debunked, Li Xin still appreciated the effort. She didn't know if Yan Ruowen really felt that way.
"Yan Ruowen, why are you holding me so tightly?" Although Li Xin's tone carried some dissatisfaction, she was secretly thrilled. Even her voice had a hint of coquettishness.
Whether it was an illusion or not, Yan Ruowen felt that as soon as Li Xin's eyes changed, her charm came out naturally. This woman's charm was indeed innate. Thinking about Li Xin's ability to attract attention, Yan Ruowen couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy.
"In the future, you're not allowed to kiss anyone else, no matter who they are. Don't get too intimate with anyone else," Yan Ruowen commanded involuntarily. She didn't want to see a repeat of what happened last time. She could let go of the past, but she would never allow a similar incident to happen again.
"You said I couldn't be satisfied. Naturally, I'll feel restless at home!" Women wouldn't be women if they didn't bring up old grievances. Li Xin was still annoyed when she thought about how Yan Ruowen had said that to her before.
"Then, I'll take responsibility for satisfying you from now on," Yan Ruowen said earnestly. Well, if she satisfied Li Xin, she wouldn't look for anyone else.
"Can you do that?" Li Xin provocatively asked.
"I'll always give it a try," Yan Ruowen squinted slightly. She was determined to conquer this woman. A tiger doesn't show its might until it's provoked. Yan Ruowen always believed that there was no task she couldn't accomplish, only insufficient effort. Her hand climbed up Li Xin's slightly shrunken but still full and firm chest, gently caressing it. She had to believe in her perseverance and action-oriented approach.
Li Xin slapped Yan Ruowen's hand away. She didn't want to roll in the sheets with Yan Ruowen now. She needed to tidy herself up first. Li Xin pushed Yan Ruowen out of her room again and rushed into the bathroom. When she saw her reflection in the mirror, she screamed again.
Hearing her sister's energetic scream, Li Yao smiled with relief. It was good that her sister had regained her spirits. Her sister was truly a woman born for love. Every time she went through a breakup, she would torment herself to death. This time was especially severe and prolonged, but once they made up, she immediately resurrected.
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"Will you stay for dinner tonight? Mom and Dad really want to see you!" Although Li Yao didn't know what had happened between her sister and Yan Ruowen, she was glad that they were in love. Everything had cleared up, and Li Yao's resentment towards Yan Ruowen had dissipated.
"Then it's settled." Actually, Li Yao is much more reliable than Li Xin, Yan Ruowen thought to herself. Thinking about meeting Li Xin's parents tonight made Yan Ruowen feel a bit nervous. Although she had met Li Yuandong at the hospital, Yan Ruowen still felt awkward about her current status.
Author's Note:
Li Xin really is such a useless woman. She was easily conquered after just two or three strokes…
