Chapter 61.5: Shi Yunyang Extra 1

"What's wrong with you? I rarely see you feeling so down," Shi Yunyang asked Qin Wanshu. Miss was very good at adjusting her own emotions since she was little. It seems like nothing could ever get her down, and nothing could make her feel so low.

"Zuo Qinghuan went to Japan yesterday. She said she wanted to grow on her own." Qin Wanshu had been feeling upset all day yesterday. When she talked to Shi Yunyang about it, there was still a faint sting in her heart.

"She comes and goes as she pleases, what's so great about that? She's full of insecurity. She's not our type of person to begin with. You two aren't suitable. She's not worthy of you." Shi Yunyang was in a good mood. She just didn't like Zuo Qinghuan's presence around Qin Wanshu. She felt Zuo Qinghuan was like a cheap garment on Qin Wanshu, but she didn't say it because she didn't want to upset Qin Wanshu.

"Whether we're suitable or not, I know it myself. Don't say these things anymore in the future." Qin Wanshu didn't like hearing these things. She knew Shi Yunyang too well. In Shi Yunyang's eyes, people are divided into different classes.

Shi Yunyang felt uncomfortable hearing Qin Wanshu defend Zuo Qinghuan, so she disliked Zuo Qinghuan even more.

"I'm not inferior to Zuo Qinghuan in looks, my figure is better than hers, and we grew up together. With such favorable conditions, Miss might consider me, what do you think?" Shi Yunyang said, sounding both genuine and fake. Qin Wanshu looked at Shi Yunyang. The first time Shi Yunyang said it, she could pass it off as a joke, but the second time, it seemed like Shi Yunyang really had such thoughts.

"You've always been like this since childhood, always wanting what others have. You grab everything, hold it tightly in your hands, and feel happy. But then, you can just discard those things without a second thought. You only enjoy the thrill of possession and conquest. No matter how precious something is, once you have it, it's no longer valuable to you," Qin Wanshu sighed lightly, looking at Shi Yunyang. When she was a child, she could use childishness and ignorance as an excuse, but now, still behaving like this, it's truly despicable. Of course, there are times when Shi Yunyang is even more despicable.

"Miss, why do you speak of me in such a negative light? I'm different towards you," she had this kind of personality, but she always believed she was different towards Qin Wanshu.

"Isn't that how your mind works? Maybe you don't truly like me, but when you see me liking Zuo Qinghuan, you get upset, stirring up your desire to dominate and possess. You're almost thirty years old, stop being so childish," Qin Wanshu sighed lightly. Her mood was still very low. She had hoped to talk to Shi Yunyang to relieve her feelings, but obviously, Shi Yunyang wasn't capable of sharing burdens and solving problems. As long as she didn't cause trouble, that was good enough.

"In your eyes, am I only capable of being that kind of person?" Shi Yunyang asked somewhat frustratedly. Although Shi Yunyang admitted that she indeed had a somewhat frivolous attitude towards relationships, easily getting bored and moving on, she felt that Qin Wanshu was the only person who might make her serious because she truly was different towards Qin Wanshu. Although she wasn't sure what kind of liking it was, Shi Yunyang knew she felt dependent on Qin Wanshu deep down. After her affair with Li Xin and tasting women, she developed a certain craving for Qin Wanshu, after all, Qin Wanshu was the cream of the crop among women. However, she also had her concerns. After all, she wasn't lacking in bed partners, and it didn't matter who she played with. But she feared that if she really slept with Qin Wanshu, their friendship since childhood might deteriorate, or even risk losing Qin Wanshu altogether. She cared a lot about their friendship, especially since Qin Wanshu was her only friend. So, she didn't dare to take risks lightly.

However, she didn't expect her hesitation to allow Zuo Qinghuan to seize the opportunity first, which made her feel annoyed, as if something she cherished had been snatched away.

"Isn't that right? You don't understand loving others, you only love yourself. Just imagine, after being with me, you'd have to give up a whole forest. Any man or woman you find attractive, you can't flirt with anymore, you have to stay away from them, and you can't come back after midnight. Wherever you go, whatever you do, you have to call me, and it's best to get my approval. If you can endure the boredom and lack of freedom of being with just one person, maybe then I'll consider it," Qin Wanshu felt it necessary to put an end to Shi Yunyang's inappropriate thoughts.

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After some thought, Shi Yunyang hesitated as expected. Qin Wanshu was very wonderful, but giving up a whole world for her didn't seem like an easy choice. Thinking about Qin Wanshu's monk-like habits and lifestyle, trying to live the same way as Qin Wanshu made Shi Yunyang's scalp tingle. It might be better to just forget it.

"Alright, you win, I do love myself the most," Shi Yunyang felt that maybe maintaining this kind of friendship with Qin Wanshu was good enough. As long as Zuo Qinghuan wasn't around, she felt at ease. Even if Qin Wanshu was upset about it, as long as she felt comfortable, that's what mattered. Why should she let others have what she couldn't have, especially Zuo Qinghuan, who she couldn't stand?

"In this world, who can just think of something and have it? Besides, emotions are different from other things. I'm afraid once you have it, you'll find it hard to handle, neither keeping it nor letting it go," Qin Wanshu thought it would be better to dispel Shi Yunyang's fleeting thoughts early on. "Hmph, you act like you'd agree to be with me just like that. Even if Zuo Qinghuan leaves, you'll still wait for her to come back, won't you?" Shi Yunyang said with a cold snort.

Qin Wanshu didn't deny it. Just the thought of Zuo Qinghuan made her mood plummet again. She didn't know how long Zuo Qinghuan would be gone. She knew Zuo Qinghuan would definitely come back, but waiting for her to grow up was too agonizing.

"You surely didn't sleep well last night, and you don't look good. I'll go get a bottle of red wine, we can have some together, and then you can get a good night's sleep," Shi Yunyang said, placing her hands on Qin Wanshu's shoulders.

"I'm fine, I can handle it," Qin Wanshu didn't feel the need to drown her sorrows in alcohol. She could regulate her own emotions. She was never one to be pessimistic.

"Indulging yourself occasionally won't hurt. Everyone has their desires and emotions. Why restrain yourself so much? You're feeling bad now, but a glass of wine and a good night's sleep will make it better. What's wrong with that?" Shi Yunyang said as she fetched a bottle of fine red wine from her wine cabinet. A glass for Miss had a special constitution. When she was feeling down, nothing suited her better than wine. Shi Yunyang poured a glass for herself and one for Qin Wanshu, offering it to her.

"Then just consider it as keeping me company while drinking," Shi Yunyang insisted, pushing the glass into Qin Wanshu's hand. Miss hadn't even drunk half of it. How could someone like Zuo Qinghuan get her? Just thinking about it, Shi Yunyang felt annoyed.

Qin Wanshu finally took the glass, looking at the beautifully colored red wine, gently swirling it around. "You're not angry that Zuo Qinghuan left just like that?" Shi Yunyang asked. She knew Zuo Qinghuan was like a thorn in Qin Wanshu's heart right now. Press it a little, and Qin Wanshu would feel uncomfortable. But she couldn't help pressing it. Well, she's really afraid the world is not in chaos.

Author's Note:

The next chapter will still focus on Shi Yunyang.