Chapter 29: Belated Confession

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At this moment, those photos all turned into fireworks and exploded in Lu Xici's mind.

Ten thousand booms shocked Lu Xici's five senses. The world faded away, and all she could see was the mobile phone in front of her.

The phone has all her business promotion pictures, irregular business GIFs from her Weibo, and even screenshots of the movies she starred in and variety shows she participated in, as well as the ones she sent to Jun Youyue a few days ago, including those of her Zhenzhu.

This entire photo album is related to her.

Love is clearly written in every corner of these more than 10,000 pictures, flowing out when fingers absentmindedly swipe.

Lu Xici couldn't hold the phone.

The excessive love made it very hot, and it stung her so much that she let go.

With a thud, the phone hit the tiled floor. Lu Xici squatted down and tried hard to maintain her balance, but she was still a little dazed.

The world was spinning, and everything around her became blurry.

She couldn't even pick up the phone. When her hand touched the screen, she clicked on a photo of her face.

Then she pulled her hand back, unable to grab the too-cunning black brick.

This was Jun Youyue's belated confession, the confession Lu Xici had been longing for.

But Lu Xici didn't dare to confirm.

She has pushed Jun Youyue away several times. Will she ever get a chance to apologize?

Or perhaps, was her heart trembling because the overheated longing finally received a response, or was it shivering because she was unwilling to face and accept this inadvertent drama?

She didn't hear footsteps approaching from behind, nor did she notice someone crouching down beside her.

It wasn't until her clothes were gently tugged.

Lu Xici instinctively moved back, her reaction so intense that it startled Jun Youyue.

Yet, Jun Youyue still managed to hold onto the little deer that wanted to bolt back to its nest due to excessive fright.

She might have been somewhat numb from being pushed away, as Lu Xici's startled kitten-like behavior no longer tugged at her heartstrings.

"I don't dislike you," she saw the phone's screen on the ground and noticed the deer's reddened eyes.

Based on her judgment, Lu Xici at this moment seemed to have sobered up from her haze.

Perhaps learning from the lessons of the previous two occasions, Jun Youyue got straight to the point and confessed to Lu Xici.

She kept her gaze fixed on Lu Xici's eyes throughout, wanting to convey her sincerity and assure Lu Xici that she wasn't lying.

Lu Xici stared back blankly at Jun Youyue, shuddering as if startled.

Jun Youyue sighed, raised her hand, and took the phone that Lu Xici had pressed beneath her palm.

She found the memoir she had prepared to give to Lu Xici that evening and handed it to her.

"I want to explain. Can you read it once and give me another chance?"

Lu Xici looked up at the old acquaintance she had liked for years, then down at the phone identical to hers.

After a few rounds of scrutinizing back and forth, as if to confirm whether she was in reality or a dream, she tremulously reached out her hand, hesitating just before touching the phone.

Jun Youyue didn't hesitate at all but just handed it closer so that Lu Xici could take it.

Lu Xici held it steady, flipping through the dozens of pages of memoirs, her eyelashes drooping.

It documented every interaction between the two over these four years.

Even the times were clearly written out.

The content was extensive and detailed.

Jun Youyue had turned the story of the two into a tens-of-thousands-word book, but reading it felt more like a diary, also documenting Jun Youyue's feelings.

It included the night when Lu Xici went to the restaurant to save Jun Youyue, how drunk she was, and how she playfully clung to Jun Youyue, and Jun Youyue's subsequent gratitude.

It included New Year's Day when the two frolicked at the Lu's house and squatted together in the snow waiting for beetles.

Here Jun Youyue also made a note in parentheses: I think this is a date and quite romantic, but my sister says that I am a big block of wood with a strange brain. Most people don't think so.

It includes the day before Lu Xici "caught" Jun Youyue and Tao Sheng, detailing the passionate exchanges between the two until what time they ended.

The truth behind the red mark was obvious. She had caused it herself and completely forgotten about it. Not to mention the nail marks; those were Jun Youyue's precautionary measures.

Including last month when Jun Youyue was ill and went to the doctor in a hurry. She added Lu Xici as a colleague and friend, but she still dared not tell her the truth.

There was even the first time between the two four years ago.

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The memoir was too long and too much, yet Lu Xici read it diligently, word by word.

She was a little confused as to how she could do such a thing. She previously thought she was sleepwalking, but who can sleepwalk to seduce the person they have a crush on and succeed?

In the beginning, Jun Youyue provided a speculation: Lu Xici probably had extremely poor alcohol tolerance, would act out under the influence, and would have memory lapses the following day.

Therefore, almost all the affectionate moments were remembered solely by Jun Youyue.

Unaware, Lu Xici thought she didn't love her and believed she was being unfaithful.

It turned out to be all misunderstandings.

Her memory lapses were ruthless, deeply hurting Jun Youyue.

Towards the end of the memoir, Jun Youyue solemnly penned her confession.

She said, "Lu Xici, I've always liked you.”

"Four years ago, you barged into my house, pulled me, and from that moment, I started liking you.”

"I might be terrible at expressing myself, too self-assured, maybe thinking differently from most people, which made you misunderstand my feelings."

"I will try my best to change, and in the future, I'll communicate with you about any thoughts I have.

"Do you want to give me another chance, and let’s try again?"

Lu Xici subconsciously nodded.

Of course, she wanted to.

During this period of divorce, no matter how she numbed herself, Jun Youyue's presence lingered persistently in her heart.

Deep down, she didn't want to let go, regretting her impulsiveness at that time.

Upon reaching this point, Lu Xici wanted to take a deep breath to ease her dizzy, oxygen-deprived mind due to nervousness and say something more, but she just sniffed.

She touched her face, only then realizing tears were streaming down her cheeks.

Meanwhile, Jun Youyue remained squatting nearby, not moving an inch, holding a handkerchief ready to wipe Lu Xici's tears away.

Lu Xici shifted, lifting her head, trying to get a clearer look at the person in front. She noticed a coat had slipped off, appearing at some point.

She met Jun Youyue's eyes and finally saw the frank liking and love in them.

"I..." Lu Xici was speechless this time.

She has never doubted the authenticity of Jun Youyue's memoir.

Jun Youyue had no reason to lie, being an honest person unable to fabricate so many details.

While Lu Xici was a significant part of their interactions, she did indeed hand Jun Youyue the divorce agreement. Also, based on her own misunderstandings, she displayed a fair amount of coldness toward Jun Youyue.

If she wasn't so self-assured, so emotional, and willing to pause and listen to just one explanation from Jun Youyue, would they not have caused so much trouble?

Lu Xici sobbed silently.

Her throat seemed to be choked by emotions and she couldn't make a sound.

Jun Youyue closed her eyes, contemplating something, inching closer.

Lu Xici must have seen through it, right?

She was somewhat unsure of her analysis.

After all, if Lu Xici thought it was all nonsense, why would she cry so miserably?

But last time, even when Jun Youyue was so earnest, she only got Lu Xici's escape as a result.

At this moment, Lu Xici's eyes were swollen severely, tears streaming continuously as if they were free as if wanting to drain her completely.

Jun Youyue looked at her, feeling a bit heartbroken.

She gathered her thoughts for a moment, nudging Lu Xici's shoulder.

"Can I hug you? Please don't cry," she paused for a moment, seemingly choosing her words carefully.

"You have a performance tomorrow... No, what I meant to say is, I feel sorry for you."

Lu Xici's tear-streaked face was flushed red.

She turned her head to cautiously glance at the approaching Jun Youyue, crying even more.

According to Jun Youyue, they had done far more intimate things many times before.

But now, with just a hug, she was so cautious. Lu Xici suddenly felt incredibly foolish.

Jun Youyue thought she had said something wrong, standing there a bit awkwardly.

It wasn't until Lu Xici nodded with sobs and leaned into Jun Youyue's embrace that she breathed a sigh of relief.

Finally, it wasn't a reckless embrace like a moth to a flame.

There was only pure warmth, mixed with a hint of tentative affection surging between their intertwined body temperatures.

Jun Youyue held her a bit tighter, and Lu Xici trembled in her arms, soon wetting her clothes with tears.

She wanted to say something but was afraid of saying the wrong thing again, so she just stroked Lu Xici's soft hair, gently patting her back to soothe her.

Jun Youyue's actions were more akin to those of a family member or sister rather than a lover, yet Lu Xici craved this tenderness immensely.

In her heart, she had yearned for this embrace for far too long.

She snuggled tightly into Jun Youyue's embrace, tears seeping through their clothes, strangely warm against Jun Youyue's chest.

As Lu Xici cried, she finally realized the unbelievable amount of tears, nearly soaking Jun Youyue, and she attempted to control her sobs, choking up.

"I'm sorry... ahem, I'm sorry." Her voice was completely hoarse from crying. Even after clearing her throat, her voice was still hoarse.

She glanced at Jun Youyue, still wanting to say something, but her lips were silenced by the woman's index finger.

"Let's talk when you're free… ahem What about the medicine I gave you two years ago?" The throat lozenges shouldn't have expired yet.

Lu Xici swallowed her saliva, resisting the urge to lick her fingers for no apparent reason, and began to recall.

After they broke up, Lu Xici collected all the gifts Jun Youyue had given her and stowed them away in a place she rarely saw, avoiding the distress of looking at them.

She used to carry the gifts Jun Youyue had given her, including last year's bottle of vitamins, but they remained untouched, serving as souvenirs.

Now, however, she needed them urgently but hadn't brought them along.

"At... at the... Lu's home, kept in... the storeroom." Lu Xici sniffled, and Jun Youyue wiped her tears reluctantly. Upon hearing this, she didn't show any sign of displeasure.

She simply picked up Lu Xici horizontally and carried her to the bed, then brought her a glass of water.

Lu Xici felt a bit dazed, sipping the lukewarm water and then looking at Jun Youyue.

"Sleep a little longer." Jun Youyue checked her phone; it was still before five o'clock, so Lu Xici could rest a little longer.

"Eye mask, in the refrigerator." She managed to say something.

Jun Youyue accurately retrieved the item as described. Meanwhile, Lu Xici fumbled to remove the pajamas dirtied by tears.

Jun Youyue tried to put the eye mask on Lu Xici, but she dodged away.

Jun Youyue noticed a blush on Lu Xici's ears.

It turns out she is shy, so cute.

Lu Xici, feeling regretful, avoided Jun Youyue's gaze, put on the eye mask, and snuggled under the covers, pretending to sleep.

Her acting skills were good, and Jun Youyue couldn't tell the difference. She just stared at Lu Xici's serene sleeping face and smiled.

The tension that had persisted since the divorce dispute finally loosened.

Jun Youyue was utterly exhausted and couldn't just fall asleep with Lu Xici like that.

She attempted to text Tao Sheng, asking for the special throat lozenges from the research institute, and then headed to the bathroom.

She needed to change out of her clothes.

Listening to the hazy sound of dripping water, Lu Xici fell asleep even before she had time to sort out everything that had just happened.

Author’s Note:

This entire event has been continuous; I hope the click rate doesn't drop tomorrow (praying girl).

I plan to apply for the V certification on Wednesday (February 1) or wait for the leaderboard change, which is after February 2. I'll be preparing for paid content afterward. I hope everyone can continue to support me.

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